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What's the sickest you've ever been in your life?

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u/CmonsterLuvin 11h ago

Detoxing from an insane level of Alcoholism.

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u/CmonsterLuvin 11h ago

Shakes and cold sweats for four days and five nights. If you need help, the first step is admitting it and getting it.

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u/DarthAgahnim 10h ago

First step check! Second step - uh tbd, third step success!

This isn’t meant to be mean or rude; I’ve been stuck on step 2 for the past 4-5 years.

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u/CmonsterLuvin 10h ago

It's never too late. Good luck to you friend.

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u/Awesome_to_the_max 5h ago

Start tapering off if you can. If you're in that deep medical intervention is your friend. Detox/rehab/hospital. You don't want to go cold turkey alone.

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u/Ok-Clothes-6979 4h ago

I did step 2 for a long while as well. i feel this comment in a lighthearted agreement haha. I keep finding my way back and this time i basically want tl stay

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u/onarainyafternoon 7h ago

Mine was heroin withdrawal/detoxing cold turkey from a gram+ a day IV habit. It's essentially like getting the worst flu you can ever imagine, and multiply it by 10. I didn't eat for nine days. Only water. Shitting and puking at the same time, sitting in the bathroom for a full 12 hours straight, crying because it won't stop. And then being so sore that you can only trudge 20 feet maximum without collapsing. I think Trainspotting gave a lot of people the wrong idea of heroin withdrawal. It doesn't last a few days only; in reality, it can last weeks. Mine lasted, I would estimate, a full 20 days before I felt somewhat normal. But you're just depleted by the end of it. And would you believe that even after all that, I still went back to the drug? Several times, in fact.

Finally I just went the suboxone route; I'm not kidding when I say it's one of the most important drugs on the planet. Especially the injectio version, Sublocade. One injection per month for six months, and your body just naturally comes off the opioids because the injection creates a hardened ball of buprenorphine (the actual drug name) under the skin of the stomach that just slowly releases. Your body just naturally then comes off the opioids.

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u/Rich_And_Blind 5h ago

Same brother, same. Except I went the Methadone route and am now on a stable 140mg (pills) a day.

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u/FatGayTexan 10h ago

Yup, was in a medical coma for a week on tons of Ativan and fentanyl because I was detoxing so hard from alcohol. I was only 25 years old too.

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u/Ok-Profit9227 10h ago

How much were you drinking to cause such a reaction to withdrawal?

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u/Civil_Tea_3250 10h ago

Congratulations and good for you.

Alcoholism is one of the worst physical addictions, but add societal norms and pressures and it makes it the worst IMO. I'm not trying to be insensitive about other addictions but even nicotine isn't as publicly acceptable as it used to be. Getting through the physical part of addiction is extremely difficult and many die from it, but also, rewiring your brain when your triggers are everywhere is another type of pain that's really hard to enunciate.

u/Repulsive_Stock9400 46m ago

It's such a sliding scale. I've been a great enjoyer of substances my whole life, so I've been addicted to pretty much everything except opiates (deliberately steered clear of them, because I wouldn't want to be an addict).

I had a nasty coke habit that I was able to kick relatively easily, because I just stopped going to coke bars and stopped hanging out with my coke friends, and I accomplished that by smoking an insane amount of weed, so I was too stoned to even leave the house. Drugs saved me from drugs!

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u/BVRPLZR_ 10h ago

It’s fun. I’m doing it right now, quietly. Still having a tall boy to calm the nerves, but I know with how much I WAS drinking, the dts would be even worse. On top of stopping the 10 bear a night regimen, I also cut thc cold turkey. I’m a fucking mess but nobody knows.

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u/Doxiebaby 10h ago

I feel this. Check out the r/sober sub. Lots of us on here. 😘

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u/Ok-Profit9227 10h ago

Good luck to you! 🤞🏻

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u/Sinisterfox23 7h ago

r/stopdrinking is a dope sub too! One of us! One of us! But sincerely, good for you. I was a daily, all day drinker for years. 2+ years sober from alcohol and fentanyl. You can do it!!!

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u/trumpsmellslikcheese 9h ago

Keep going brother. Don't look back. You've already done what most people in that spot can't, so you're a badass motherfucker with balls of titanium.

I'm impressed. You got this.

u/Soft-Temporary-7932 27m ago

I’m about to start naltrexone to help taper off. Will check back with results.

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u/D-Sleezy 10h ago

Can confirm. Shit can actually kill you, and when I was going through it, I was hoping it would.

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u/saltylittlelass 9h ago edited 9h ago

I work in a medical detox. It’s no joke, my patients come through at death’s door. Please do NOT try to go cold turkey on your own, ever. Go to the ER or a detox center. We’re not judging you, we genuinely care about you and want you not to die!

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u/blahblahshowmeurcat 9h ago

Thank you for the work that you do <3

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u/upurcanal 9h ago

I was waiting for this.
Detox then severe withdrawals, the puking bile is so painful, I thought I was going to tear my esophagus.
Couldn’t even drink water and hold it down.
Light bursts in my eyes, shaking.

Alcohol is poison.

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u/gnashbashandcrash 9h ago

You can die from esophageal varicies. Super scary. I've had to medically detox once and don't want it to happen again.

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u/prtproductions 9h ago

Worst I have ever felt - physically and psychologically. It’s like you’re going through the worst flu you can ever have and at the same time experiencing intense emotional distress and crazy anxiety. Medical intervention helps.

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u/buttsexisyum 10h ago

Ya... I'm not looking forward to it. I detoxed off fent/tranq in jail and wanted to die. Now I have a massive drinking habit I need to kick and I know that's gonna be way worse

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u/blahblahshowmeurcat 9h ago

Come join us at r/stopdrinking :) yeah, it sucks, but I couldn’t have done it without that sub I kid you not. Tons of amazing advice, and when you want to scream about it, come on and we will scream with you.

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u/buttsexisyum 9h ago

I appreciate the offer. I'm not quite ready yet and when I do make the leap I'm going to detox and AA meetings. Not my first time around and I feel screaming at actual people helps more then screaming into the Internet

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u/blahblahshowmeurcat 9h ago

Haha fair enough :) everyone has their own way! I scroll it at night before bed, and read people’s stories. Helps me keep a clear head, but we are all very different. Sending love to ya

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u/buttsexisyum 9h ago

appreciate the concern, luckily I'm not in a terrible spot, I'm miles above where I was at 5 years ago coming out of jail for drugs. Unfortunately I got a job that kinda encourages drinking and allows me to drink as much as I want for free. I'm just getting tired of it, haven't had a sober thought in the past 4 years.

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u/blahblahshowmeurcat 8h ago

I’m with you. I used to be BAD bad bad. Like non stop morning till night. I’m in the wine industry, and have endless amounts of free booze at all times. I talk about it all day, around it all day, and it’s all I’ve worked in for 15 years. I can’t talk about my sobriety with hardly anyone I really know, hence why anonymous Reddit helps me personally

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u/IShitSauce 10h ago

DTs are fucking terrifying. I was drinking anywhere from half a 1.75l of whiskey a day to a full 1.75l. Quit cold turkey cause no money left. When the DTs hit, my friend grabbed me a couple twelve packs of beer and basically kept me under watch and fed me a beer every now and again to help ease out of it too severely.

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u/Ok-Clothes-6979 9h ago

yeah this is the worst i think i could imagine. ive gone cold turkey of h and fent but i didnt fear dying as I would have if it were alcohol or benzos. but still. heroin wds is hell and I cant imagine worse.​

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u/Quietbricks 9h ago

This is mine as well. So sick that the only thing that works is more. Been sober 4-5 months. I feel like it’s for good this time. I’m happy I’m free again. I know you know what I mean.

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u/its_liiiiit_fam 9h ago

Alcohol withdrawal is NO joke and people don’t realize that. It can literally kill you. Good for you for getting through it!

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u/lilkurt09 9h ago

me but with opiods. withdrawl is no joke, i wanted to die

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u/samo7230 8h ago

Alcohol withdrawals are one of the few types of withdrawal that can actually kill you. They suck so bad especially when you’ve relapsed and know what you’re in for when you try to stop again

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u/NowYouaSeeWhyYouScum 4h ago

On the flip side the first time I gave myself alcohol poisoning. I felt like I got beat by baseball bats over my whole body for the a week. First spent an eternity on the floor in and out of consciousness while puking bile between bouts of dry-heaving that felt like someone was ripping my intestines out through my mouth. It was a spectrum of awful like I'd never experienced before. I was certain I was dying and didn't care because it was awful. I had no idea that's what it was until much later when my addiction counselor was like "my man, that's what we call alcohol poisoning." 

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u/emp_forced_reform 4h ago

I detoxed from a much MUCH less severe level of alcoholism, and I still had panic attacks for a few days.

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u/WoofJess 1h ago

This makes me sad. My mum lost her partner to this and it was horrible to see. He never kicked the habit and I can’t imagine how much it would have hurt.

Glad you successfully detoxed.

u/printed_ 32m ago

good on you though because that is HARd and Dangerous! So Kudo's!