r/FutureRNs • u/tri-handedscp • 1d ago
The other face of nursing
my hands still smell like hand sanitizer and i genuinely cant sleep and i had this patient today, an older diabetic man, and his foot infection looked nothing like what we see in the textbooks. like you can study pictures all you want but seeing it on an actual person is completely different. when i checked his glucose my hands were shaking a little and i was trying so hard not to let him notice
while i was getting the syringe ready he started telling me about his wife. she used to make him check his sugar before his morning coffee every single day. apparently she did it for like 40 yearsb(she died last spring) he told me his apartment has been really quiet since then because theres nobody there anymore telling him to check his sugar or bothering him about it i didnt really know what to say so i just listened then he showed me a picture of her on his phone. she was laughing at something outside the picture, at a wedding. i dont know why but that image stayed in my head i ended up sitting there way longer than i needed to just to draw one vial of glucose they really dont tell you in nursing school how fucking emotional this job can be.
you learn the drugs, the calculations, the procedures, the blood tests, everything you're supposed to do when something goes wrong but nobody really teaches you what to do when a patient starts talking about someone they lost you cant fix it. you cant give them something for it. you just sit there and listen i still dont feel like a nurse tbh. most of the time i still feel like a student who is just trying not to fuck something up but today i felt closer to being a nurse than i ever have in a classroom and honestly i think that might be the part nobody teaches you