For context, I'm about to start the 3rd (and final) year of my bachelor's degree. I've been interested in EE since technical secondary school (IT focus), and frankly I don't know what else I would do.
I have to admit I don't have any special passion for it, but I never really did for anything else either. I don't do extra projects in my free time, the way some people do. During the school year my curriculum is full enough, and in summer I really want to step away from anything school-related.
I have to repeat one class from last semester (I could have passed it, but it would have required an oral retake exam with the worst human being I've ever met).
My grades put me in the top 20-30% of students, but it still feels like I'm studying the test and not the subject. I really don't know how to feel about that.
I stopped going to one subject's lectures because there was a guy answering every question the professor asked as if it were 1+1. It made me feel stupid and bad about myself. I don't really know why professors ask questions during lectures anyway. The first time we ever saw an antenna array, the professor asked if anyone wanted to write out its radiation function. Picture my surprise when that same guy just did it.
But on the other hand, almost every new lab partner has managed to surprise me with how little someone in the same class can know and still be there.
Is it normal to feel like this?